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(It's five in the morning). I am done

So done man (ya'll know what I mean). I don't even know why I am writing, but honestly the fact that I can write no matter how my mind is, I believe is an accomplishment. I think when I wake up and I look back at whatever I have scrawled down in this post, I will have the motivation to perfect my civic discourse paper and fly to Pluto if I wanted too.. I had an extensive rant about politics, healthcare, and more politics in the ER room this morning. I wasn't the one that was hurt though. I was there for moral support, for a friend of a friend. Recently I have discovered the "night life", it is not all its cracked up to be, but it is entertaining just as well. I have seen some people that I have not seen in a long time. People my age with jobs and kids and ambitions, that need that release from the working adult world and just want to party antd bullsh*t. I don't think there is anything wrong with that. They wake up from there hangovers and go to work or go to school. They do there jobs or pass their test and they are productive citizens. I love that, the ability to live in two worlds and actually be the same person. People accept you.... this is a random post and I am going to stop soon but, my point I guess is that..as adults know one is really judging. After the party is over, after the fight  is over, after the one night stands, you have people that go to work 2 hours later and can ask "how may I help you." Maybe that's just how I feel, but seeing so many of my old friends leading two lives and many of them doing okay, I feel pretty good. I guess there is a medium between being reckless and not having fun at all... :Nile Najee:

Check this site out thesecondletter.com it's awesome,  Writing is great and I love what I do, but the perception of the eye is fascinating.  thesecondletter.com    The picture I have up here was taken by Brian Washington. I swear I admire this dude, because he is an example of someone who uses his gifts and he makes things happen. A Va Beach creative mind at its best. I love my city. I love my hood. I love my writing. :Nile Najee:

Inspiration from a likely source...

     I haven’t written anything in a really long time.(well other then my english essay). I don’t know why really, I think it has been, because I have been working all spring break and doing my civic discourse project. I have been really stressed out and I have had a seriously annoying fight with Mr. writers block.

However, just recently I got my cell phone turned back on I have been texting a lot, and when I mean a lot..I mean a lot. Anyway I met this young woman in my English 111 class and she is kind of like me, really reserved, quiet. I mean I am usually not like this at all (I’m usually really animated) but honestly the people in my class intimidate me because of some of the age differences. Ugh, I keep going off topic, breath Nile, breath. I don’t think anyone reading this can understand how I am feeling right now. It is incredible how one picture can say so much.

My newly made friend Rhiannon is...intriguing... I honestly have not been able to hold constant conversations with a person every time I talk to them. With her though, I can be myself. I can be goofy when I’m texting her, we talk about zombies and Pokémon and beer and a whole bunch of random things. There are not a whole lot of restrictions. I don't have to "pretend". It is really a breath of fresh air to find someone who is seemingly so open minded. I know this post may sound weird; anyone reading this is probably like "Nile you’re a loser". I don't really think so, I think I find inspiration in the most random things, but I love to find inspiration from people and pictures. This picture of Rhiannon grabbed me and pulled me in like... damn there is nothing to really describe it. It just is what it is. At first I thought it was her eyes, but looking at the picture closer I discovered it wasn’t that at all. The picture was so intense that it was radiating an inner beauty and mixing with the outer beauty and creating the image that you see before you. Now someone can say what they may... I honestly don't care, but you cannot tell me that you have never seen a person like that before. Someone who tells there life story, shows there emotions, there hopes and fears with just a picture. Some may call it photogenic, I don't know what to call it. I know that she showed me some more pictures that she took herself and they were all just as stunning and intense and creative. This post isn't on some "fiending for a girl shit", you have to understand that, that the human body, human emotions, and human expressions is an art to me. Sometimes I find that rare painting and I have to share it, I have express myself, as hard as it is....

I just want to end this post by saying that, I think that when a person does their best to be themselves...it shows. If everyone spent more time being there true self and not trying to be like another person, we would get along better... Thank you Rhiannon for inspiring this post, I saw art today thnx to you. ^_^ :Nile Najee: