Anger issues...and snow.

I have anger issues, full blown issues involving my anger.
Does this beginning statement have anything to do with writing in Eng 111? Yes, of course it does, because I am one of those writers that can show you how I feel without actually telling you. It is almost an aura that bleeds off of my words like a wound that wont stop bleeding and will never heal. I could write about the most kindhearted and holy person in the world, but you would still feel MY thoughts burning off the page. Thats how personal I make my words, I cant help it, thats just how it is. Now the problem with me is that I hold it in, anger that is, every other emotion I share with the world everyday. My joy, my sorrows, my regrets, my triumphants, but anger, it eats me from the inside out... like a cancer. Wow...exactly like a Cancer, by Cancer I mean the zodiac sign. They say Cancer's have the tendency to let things go until they just explode on whatever or whoever. We don't keep many friends, because we let this monster grow until it just too much too handle, and of course it becomes too much for someone else to handle. I would be writing my professional discourse project essay, but I can not, because all I can think about is the fact that I have this crazy duty to protect someone else feelings by not being able to live my life. That sentence was too long... let me make it simple.
I have someone saying, 'You have freedom to do what you want, but if you do what you want then I will lose my mind with worry." How do you comfort a person that doesn't want to be comforted? How do you live your life and protect someone elses sanity who you have know choice but to care about? I do not know...thats why its eating me, slowly...slowly...slowly...slowly...slowly, so I have to write. I have to write like I have a demon on my back. I feel like if I write, the aura will only be radiating from my words instead of me. God give me strength, because I need it, I am stuck between a rock and a hard place, and I can not see the light of day. oh and thank you for the snow...
ようこそ私の考えに :Nile Najee:

Eng 111 Second blog writing evaluation

I have discovered that I am two things, a free thinker and a writer. Not necessarily in that order. The question is, am I a writer who thinks freely, or a free thinker who happens to write. I believe I am the latter, because I have been a free thinker long before I loved to write. I think writing for me is just a way to get my thoughts out to whoever listens. Honestly not that many people listen...or even care for that matter. This sad fact not suprisingly runs over into the next paper that I will be required to write in ENG 111. How does it run over, and eager reader may wonder(or not care at all). I shall answer your question...with a question. what career would enable me to share my thoughts to people who would not only listen, but care? That, my friends is where I have my dilemma. This is going to be a HUGE sidenote, but I am tired and I have the itis, because I just ate a load of china food(yes I know said china food, not chinese food) and all I can think about is putting my hands down, closing my eyes and falling asleep. However, that is something I will not do, because I want to keep writing this post(regardless of who reads it).
Okay I think I am back on track, so lets see, what do i want to be when I grow up? I believe I may posssibly want to be some type of educator. When people ask, I tell them a History or English professor, so I think a history professor will be what I write my essay on. where will I find a history professor to interview?! I guess I can go hunt for one at NSU or ODU or even better, TCC. I think I am going to take a break for a few when my mind isnt in such a distracted state.( I keep thinking about china food). I can assure myself that I will check online to research my career choice in about five minutes, but for now, I will be going.... ^_^
ようこそ私の考えに :Nile Najee:

I am a....

writer [ˈraɪtə]
n
1. (Communication Arts / Journalism & Publishing) a person who writes books, articles, etc., esp as an occupation
2. (Communication Arts / Printing, Lithography & Bookbinding) the person who has written something specified
3. (Literary & Literary Critical Terms) a person who is able to write or write well
Collins English Dictionary – Complete and Unabridged 6th Edition 2003. © William Collins Sons & Co. Ltd 1979, 1986 © HarperCollins Publishers 1991, 1994, 1998, 2000, 2003

U.P.M.W. (Uniting people with Music and Words) Social discourse project, ENG 111

January 27, 2010

Ms. Taylor-Magee
1700 College Crescent Virginia Beach, VA 23453

Dear Ms. Taylor-Magee,
I would like to start off by stating that I am a proud student of Tidewater Community College. I know that you may hear many proposals of clubs that do not always focus on the whole of TCC. However, I am proposing not just a school wide club, but a topic that is universal. I would like to present to you the U.P.M.W., Uniting People with Music and Words. This is the ideal organization that will bring students together, and will increase the retention rate. I feel that a program such as this can expand far and wide, from campus to campus. I am proposing a club that isn’t specified just for certain ages, or whether you have different majors. No, music is enjoyed by everyone, so I would like to use it to unite the school and people in general, by creating this club. This idea can expand far and wide, and I believe that it will create more of camaraderie between students, faculty and the public as one body. I want to cater to people who like Rock music, Hip-hop, Jazz, Country, Beat-boxing, open mic poetry etc. If we bring all these different genres of music together, I believe if people can open their minds to new and unique types of music; they can open their minds to a variety of things. Music is the start, because it is the most universal form of expression. Nothing less, this is just the tip of the iceberg for my dream for TCC and beyond, and I want to explain to you how we can make it a thriving reality.
The detailed purpose of this club/organization is to share people’s gift of music and words in a structured environment that will promote a variety of music, poetry and sound. Exposing a group of individuals to a mixture of new and unique music from all over the country and the world can be a start to understanding and learning about other cultures and social groups. This is an idea that can materialize, because I myself have found this true from experience. Once an avid listener of American rock and hip-hop, I stumbled upon a few Japanese songs that caught my interest. Ever since my encounter with these songs, I have immersed myself in the culture of Japan and also expanded my knowledge of other cultures and music. There is too much segregation within the world itself, but music should not be segregated. If you are white I think it is nothing wrong with listening to hip-hop and if you are black it is nothing wrong with listening to rock music, and if you are an American it is nothing wrong with listening to music from other countries. The words the emotions, even the topics are similar. Each person in the world has a story and people should hear these stories and appreciate them. So within this club that I am proposing there will be an environment that will encourage a "melting pot" of music that will explore music from different states, time periods, countries and continents. This discovery of new genres and musical cultures will prompt students to find out about the cultures and people they have listened too. Many countries listen to American music, but do not know the history behind it, so why not use this club to connect to other countries and teach them the history and vice-a-versa. The idea that music can change lives is an understatement. Musicians such as Bob Marley, Michael Jackson, The Beatles, Selena, and Johnny Cash have changed the face of the planet, bringing people together through either their music, their words...or both. In order to continue to have influential and positive musicians, the club will have numerous fundraisers that will support local TCC musicians and lyricist. The club will host mini-concerts to display the talents of up and coming musicians and lyricist, through talent shows, competitions and collaborations of music and poetry. All the proceeds will go directly to expanding the club and eventually, creating a TCC radio station that will furthermore spread a variety of music to the public.
Our Motto shall be “Music is universal, so why can't we use it to become universal ourselves?” I want to emphasize on this motto, because the club will incorporate “Universal” in a lot of the activities that we will undergo. This includes trips to concerts of all genres of music, including musicals. Hopefully we can work towards taking trips during spring break to other cities where a type of musical sound was originated, for example jazz in New Orleans. The club will study the reason and story behind the creation of a genre of music in order to share the information with fellow students and the public. Activities such as mentoring grade school children would be within the plan of “Universal”. Opening young student’s eyes to the world through music, increasing their confidence by showing them how they can expand their gifts, whether it is music or poetry. This is one of the many goals of the U.P.M.W. In order to make it clear and precise, I have set up a list of the most important goals of the U.P.M.W organization.
• Increase the retention rate at Tidewater community college by uniting students and creating a sense of belonging through music, sound, and words.
• Close the gap of musical segregation, by educating students in different genres of music and expose them to other cultures music, musicians and poetry.
• Educate the public as a whole by performing concerts, competitions and talent shows, with a variety of music and poetry.
• Create a radio station ran by TCC students and with a mix and variety of music from students and professional artist from around the country and world.
• Have a mentoring program like the “Save the Music” foundation, which includes TCC students talking to and mentoring grade school students interested in music and poetry.
It would be benefit the school greatly if this group was recognized at TCC as an official school club. Knowing the potential of this club, and how much it can change the face of college life, I feel that there is no better place to propose this idea than at Tidewater Community College. I appreciate the time you have given this idea and I hope that we can work together in the near future to make this dream a reality.



Sincerely,
Nile Najee D Yarn
Nile Najee D Yarn
Email: Nile_Najee@yahoo.com

Off the dome...

I let my fingers fly and my mind sky dive,
I ask God why my eyes stay so wide?
Lookin at the world with compound eyes,
seeing every intricate detail in the blue blue sky,
I hear evil, see evil and speak it too,
because I'm human, I ruin my brain with lust, greed and envy.
Honestly who hasnt, thought at one time like Nile Najee.
Writing freestlye? Dont know if there is such a thing,
but I know I have no crown on my head,
I claim no throne and I am no king.
Easy to please,Its REAL easy to be me.
I aint trying to be perfect,
all I can do is look at the mirror and see ME.

ようこそ私の考えに :Nile Najee:

Gorillaz, french toast and some more writing

Some more of what I have been putting together...


The detailed purpose of this club/organization is to share people’s gift of music and words in a structured environment that will promote a variety of music and poetry. The idea exposing a group of individuals to a mixture of new and unique music from all over the country and the world, can be a start to understanding and learning about other cultures and social groups. This is an idea that can materialize, because I myself have found this true thru experience. Once an avid listener of American rock and hip-hop, I stumbled upon a few Japanese songs that caught my interest. Ever since my encounter with these songs, I have immersed myself in the culture of Japan and also expanded my knowledge of other cultures and music. There is too much segregation within the world itself, but music should not be segregated. If you are white I think it is nothing wrong with listening to hip-hop and if you are black it is nothing wrong with listening to rock music. The words the emotions, even the topics are similar. Each person in the world has a story and people should hear those stories and appreciate them. So within this club that I am proposing their will be an environment that will encourage a "melting pot" of music, that will explore music from different states, time periods, countries and continents. This discovery of new genres and musical cultures will prompt students to find out about the cultures and people they have listened too. Many countries listen to American music, but do not know the history behind it, so why not use this club to connect to other countries and teach them the history and vice-a-versa.
The idea that music can change lives is an understatement. Musicians such as Bob Marley, Michael Jackson, The Beatles, Selena, and Johnny Cash have changed the face of the planet, bringing people together through either their music, their words...or both. In order to continue to have influential and positive musicians, the club will have numerous fundraisers that will support local TCC musicians and lyricist. The club will host mini-concerts to display the talents of up and coming musicians and lyricist, through talent shows, competitions and collaborations of music and poetry. All the proceeds will go directly to expanding the club and eventually creating a TCC radio station that will furthermore spread the variety of music to the public.
ようこそ私の考えに :Nile Najee:

Vikings lost...but I shall not fail on this essay! ^_^

*Just the beginning of it..more later 2nite

I would like to start off by stating that I am a proud student of TCC. I plan to use this wonderful opportunity to work towards being an educator on the college level, teaching History or English. I know that you may hear many proposals of clubs that do not always focus on the WHOLE of TCC. However, I am proposing not just a school wide club, but a topic that is universal. I would like to present to you the UPMW, Uniting People with Music and Words. This is the ideal organization that will bring students together, and will increase the retention rate. I feel that a program such as this can expand far and wide, and the public as a united body. I am proposing a club that isn’t specified just for certain ages, or whether you have different majors. No, music is enjoyed by everyone, so I would like to use it to unite the school and people in general by creating this club. This idea can expand far and wide, and I believe that will create more of camaraderie between students, faculty and the public as one body. I want to cater to people who like Rock music, Hip-hop, jazz, country, beat-boxing, or open mic poetry. If we bring all these different genres of music together, I believe if people can open their minds to new and unique types of music, they can open their minds to a variety of things. Music is the start, because it is the most universal form of expression. This is just the tip of the iceberg for my dream for Tidewater Community College and beyond, and I want to explain to you how we can make it a thriving reality.

Sooo yeah.... early morning rants and a poem.

Well its Sunday and I haven't written my letter yet. Sigh...idk i just haven't been able to put the words together. I really want to write this letter not just as a project for class but as a genuine idea for a club. I want to express my passion for my club in this lettter. Hopefully it will come to me later today. In the meantime...I did do a pretty fly lookin poster. Epic good grade FTW? ^_^ Hope its not stealing, but I mite do a video too. More like a powerpoint though, I dont have a video camera.

Random moment: I wrote the beginning of a song or poem or whatever like an hour ago, I thought it was sweet. "I wanna dive deep into your mind and swim thru your intelligence. I wanna understand your hopes and dreams, all your beautiful hidden messages...." Yeah thats something I wrote.

Its too early too be up...but this algebra has to be studied! I vow to conquer the monster I call Math! Hmmmm... it seems that a writers thought process is even more odd and jumbled in the wee hours of the morning. Before I go to bed I think i feel like posting a poem that I wrote awhile ago while i listen to Nujabes http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FtuoEtohPv4&feature=related

Sleep never comes to those with ever open eyes....
so I sit wishing I could relax in the skies.
I am always real,
when I write,
I'm hoping to always feel...
the words on the page.
Its all the rage to spit a few bars and become a mainstream star,
but what ever happened to the poets and the bards?
See my mind stays far away from the material things,
I'm a brotha that tries to avoid those material queens.

Gluttony
One of the sins I believe is the most obscene.
If you have, all should have,
Prosper and multiply...do the math.
Why is kindness a weakness?
A true strong person would seek this...
the ability to share what they have obtained,
wether its knowledge or wealth,
every small detail can be of help.
NEVER, squander your gift(s), because that breaks the web that connects us to the world,
even if you think what you do is small....
the Lord knows that what was bestowed upon you is for the good of all.
Now I am not a preachers son...
but my father preached...and practiced,
and practiced and preached
and every child, parent or otherwised he took that chance to teach.
Whatever he knew he spoke on it,
that is why I speak on it,
because our goal is to do better,
feel better,
love better,
learn better
to all in all... BE better.
So how can you achieve, if you are too blind to see...
that you can't live for yourself
you cant really survive without help,
and that if you have you can give,
and you can receive,
then pass the gift on and plant a seed,
in the next person you meet,
until the world is intertwined into a network of,
LOVE, TRUST, KINDNESS and KNOWLEDGE,
and until we acknowledge this
and really start sharing our gifts
no matta how many spaceships are built,
or wars are fought,
that progress will NOT be made
and we will moonwalk forever in misery....
:Nile Najee: ようこそ私の考えに