Martha Splatter plays Pokeman and X-uh-C is fun....

Sooo it has come to my attention that I have not written anything on my blog in what seems like ages. Suprisingly this was told to me by someone other then myself, which is funny because I didnt believe anyone was reading my blog or cared about what I had to say. So I believe I am back on the ball. (I guess thats the right cliche). Hope you all enjoy whatever comes off the top of my dome in the next few minutes because I am not sure I will.

Where to start? I have no clue honestly. Since this is an academic blog, I think i will begin with school. School is not hard, but by far it is not easy. I think.. no, I know I have all A's in my classes except for math. I am struggling with it, but I think a little bit more studying might help me out, so I am not too stressed.  History is cool, Its not exciting...but I can tolerate it. On the other  hand my English class still keeps me extremely happy or extremely frustrated. The most recent paper I had to write (and still in the process of writing) is my Academic essay. I can't really grasp my arms around it with a loving embrace. I am not a fan of researching for an assignment. I mean I will research random information ALL day, but when it comes to school and works cited and bibliographies its a pain the arse. So yeah.. anyway random. random. random. Clams...

I am starving! *nom nom nom*. I swear I could eat a HUGE burger right now. Screw the whole veggie tale thing. I need a burger!! I am sitting in the library and even though I have my music on and I cant hear it, I know my stomach is talking to everyone in this computer lab. Its probably saying this.

"Dear people that around my human host,

You need to give him some food ASAP. If you do not I will temporarily take over his body and jump thru the window. That will not be a pretty sight. That is all."

So yep Im starving, but I dont want to break this 20. Hopefully my music will avert my attention from the tapeworm that lives in my stomach. Speaking of music I want to dedicate this post to a very new friend of mine named Chanel Ford. A little a bit about her. Shes black. Thats pretty much it. I mean theres WAY more, but It's too much awesomeness to explain in one post. Anyway she turned me on... (hahahaha funny) to alot of good arse music. I have been into alot of techno and rave music lately and she gave me a list of different bands that she effs wit. I have been in love with this DJ called Ms Kittin and she probably has some of the trippy-ist beats/songs you can imagine. This new sound of music I have been jamming to has prompted me to make another cool name for myself ( other then Nile Najee and Mad Hatter). Well its X-uh-C. Nothing incredibly creative... I just couldnt spell the actual word for the life of me. It looked cool on paper so I went with it. End of the story.

What else is there to say? Oh for some odd reason I have become attached to old pokemon games..and so have my friends. Isn't that weird? I can actually trade pokemon with people in 2010. Thats pretty wild since pokemon first started a LONG time ago lol You still got kids my age playing the new games and the old ones. Sigh... I swear I think I am losing my writing touch, but I think I am just a little rusty from not writting in a while. I am not even going to proofread this or anything because I am feeling really lazy today. Its Friday and I am bored and theres is honestly too much serious stuff going on for me to be serious myself and so methodical....

I just want to have fun... I am tired of trying to be a damn want to be revolutionist. Its stressful trying to find the negative in everything. I mean there is a lot of negativity in the world and it needs to be fixed, but I just want to relax. Is that too hard to ask? I mean sometimes I want to just hang out with some good friends and not worry about school or work or money. I guess I am just talking crazy... Anyway if you want to text or call this raving maniac. My number is 757-305.3537

Konichiwa and adios my friends

:Nile Najee: ;Mad Hatter;  #X-uh-C#

Essays and friends: friends and essays

Okay its been forever. I have not posted anything on my blog and I think it has affected my brain activity. I have had a bunch of projects, a math quiz and various other things to worry about. Yes, I have been slippin and sliding off track like Luigi in Super Mario bros. It's time to get back on the horse tho, I need to write my academic essay soon, even though its due April 23rd I feel like if I don't do it now I won't ever do it. Ugh, I dont even know if I want to do the topic I chose. How crazy is that? I have written a topic proposal about "College Racism" and I don't even know if I want to do the essay. I have a conference tommorow at 10:30 and what do I have? Nothing, Nada. I think I may cry. I don't even have writers block. I just do not have anything of interest that I could write about involving college. This is my first semester in college, so how the hell can I talk about a problem or problems in college? I know nothing. Anyway this essay is even more of a pain in the ass then the other ones. I mean I liked doing the other ones, but at least I could relate to those essay... Sigh, I guess i will figure something out in the next 48 hours. Hope somebodys praying for me, because I'm not praying for me. haha. By the way I definetly pissed off alot of people over the past few weeks and regained their "friendship". I gotta give a shout out to my bestfriend Ciara Santos tho. Most beautifully talented person, kind, funny and compassionate person I know. She really bring a dudes spirits up when hes down. I feel like making a graphic design for her. I really admire her and the way she overcomes her daily life struggles. I hope I can do it in like 30 minutes because I got class at 9:30. see whoever later.  :Nile Najee:

I just wanna rant!

I just kinda wanted to do a short PSA.

 Reasons why I am NOT a conformist.

1. I dress the way I want when I want.

2. I am black and I read for pleasure, not just for school

3. I listen to literally ALL types of music, I don't dismiss a song just because of the genre

4. I enjoy skateboarding even though I suck at it.

5. I am a straight man that actual has conversations with women and do not have an underlying agenda

6. I like all types of women; not just light skinned black girls and white girls

7. I watch anime and cartoons and I  still think I am pretty cool

8. I can rap and beatbox, not because I am black, but because its fun to do

9. I don't believe Jesus was the savior and the one son of God... shoot me. (I dont believe in religion)

10. I think I am allowed to say really serious stuff at times AND have a sense of humor sometimes

That is all.

Sick... lyrically and physically..and probably mentally...

I finally finished making my newsletter, which was the second part of my civic discourse paper. I have know Idea how I did it, because it feels like my nose is burning in hell. I think may be swallowed up in these sinuses. *sniffle* *sniffle*. I wish I was immune to everything I swear....
   Anyway I have alot going on right now, alot of it involves writing. I mean don't get my wrong I love writing, whether its for pleasure or for informative reasons I like to write. However, I dont like to write about the same....exact...topics! I have to write a research paper in my SDV class about the career that I want to choose. Its funny, because I defiently did an 7 page paper on just that for English 111.  I guess that I will have to suck it up and go all in. By the way I am writing elementary like, because my brain is slowly turning to mush and my esophagus is slowly turn into a solid piece of nothing. DX I have no idea what to do!!! I can't even think, I can't wait till this transistion period between spring and winter is over... I can't stand it, I am a Summer baby, point blank period. I live for the heat and the sun. Matter fact I think I am a plant  because I swear I could live off the rays of the Sun alone. oh man... I am veering off the course of logical brain activity.

Here are the next lines, of a young black techno kid, who eva neva kids, I mean, neva eva kids, but who really gives a shiiiit. they say hes too serious, they say he aint funny. They say he straight broke and aint got nare a bit of money. He raps real country, and extra deep fryed, and he aint neva lied when he says that he thinker. Hes on the brink of thinkin', himself off a bridge. Now let me speak as this kid... I am a 6 foot 1, son of a sun. Brighter then some, and dimmer then most. the sun's son neva boast about his intellect, but he is just best, does that contradict? I think so, but who cares? Nooone eva listens to the smart one, until its too late, like in all the horror movies, thats why I'm irate. Somebody please rewind the tape and make a diffferent decision so we can change our damn fate....

:Nile Najee:

Migraines and Essays...okay?

I have a migraine in my brain and its jumping up and down on my membrane causing me severe pain and its definetly breaking up my mindframe.... I hope the these Tylenols weren't taken in vain. I lay here, and I feel fear that my braincells won't be strong enough to get me out of here, and when I say "here", I mean my college career. I do hear, alot of loose lips telling me that I ain't spit, but I think this intro to some new sh*t will have them quiet in the pulpit. So here it is, the real biz---ness. I've been working on my literary, fit--ness. Can you dig this? I can, and my pen did, and my hand did, and probably my non-existant kids did. So read this, with an open mind, if you have time, but if you don't, atleast you read this short rhyme. Adios amigo, until the next lines.

My Civic Discourse Paper

Why does the general population of adults not understand that if the younger generation is not properly taught equally and fairly that the productivity of the world will not be prosperous? While various topics are brought up and addressed, funding for education is continually being cut. Why is something such as education and public facilities for youth not getting top priority? Children are pushed to do better in school and in their community, but their communities and schools do not have the resources. This is the dilemma that we face and this is the topic that I personally feel should be at the forefront of lawmakers and any cities minds. Now granted it is ultimately up to the child to choose the path of education and productivity, but if the extra push is not there at all, this will no doubt affect their progress. The lack of resources within education and youth centers is a nationwide problem, however being a Virginia Beach, Virginia resident I want to focus on my hometown.

By studying the problems and issues and maybe even exploring some solutions right here in my city, I can maybe see if there is a pattern in the education system throughout America. My specific focus is the areas that span between Newtown road and Virginia Beach blvd. and Independence blvd. and Virginia Beach blvd. The major neighborhoods of Lake Edwards, Bayside arms, Newpoint, Aragona, Campus East, Wesleyan and Northridge have a large child and student population. You would think that due to this large population of young people that there would be recreational center and reliable transportation nearby.

Sadly there is not, by car the bayside recreational (the closest recreational center to these neighborhoods is about ten-twenty minutes away. However, not all children can get a ride to the recreational center by car. If someone wanted to walk from one of these neighborhoods it would take no less than an hour to two hours to get there. Even if the bus were used as transportation, it would take approximately forty-five minutes to an hour.

This is just the tip of the iceberg when it comes to the issues of not having an accessible public youth facility near these major areas. There are even more problems that warrant the immediate building of a youth center/recreational center that can be used by the public and geared towards the children of those areas. I have personal experience with these neighborhoods and recognize how important a youth center would be.

I love this ish... I love my words....

(It's five in the morning). I am done

So done man (ya'll know what I mean). I don't even know why I am writing, but honestly the fact that I can write no matter how my mind is, I believe is an accomplishment. I think when I wake up and I look back at whatever I have scrawled down in this post, I will have the motivation to perfect my civic discourse paper and fly to Pluto if I wanted too.. I had an extensive rant about politics, healthcare, and more politics in the ER room this morning. I wasn't the one that was hurt though. I was there for moral support, for a friend of a friend. Recently I have discovered the "night life", it is not all its cracked up to be, but it is entertaining just as well. I have seen some people that I have not seen in a long time. People my age with jobs and kids and ambitions, that need that release from the working adult world and just want to party antd bullsh*t. I don't think there is anything wrong with that. They wake up from there hangovers and go to work or go to school. They do there jobs or pass their test and they are productive citizens. I love that, the ability to live in two worlds and actually be the same person. People accept you.... this is a random post and I am going to stop soon but, my point I guess is that..as adults know one is really judging. After the party is over, after the fight  is over, after the one night stands, you have people that go to work 2 hours later and can ask "how may I help you." Maybe that's just how I feel, but seeing so many of my old friends leading two lives and many of them doing okay, I feel pretty good. I guess there is a medium between being reckless and not having fun at all... :Nile Najee:

Check this site out thesecondletter.com it's awesome,  Writing is great and I love what I do, but the perception of the eye is fascinating.  thesecondletter.com    The picture I have up here was taken by Brian Washington. I swear I admire this dude, because he is an example of someone who uses his gifts and he makes things happen. A Va Beach creative mind at its best. I love my city. I love my hood. I love my writing. :Nile Najee:

Inspiration from a likely source...

     I haven’t written anything in a really long time.(well other then my english essay). I don’t know why really, I think it has been, because I have been working all spring break and doing my civic discourse project. I have been really stressed out and I have had a seriously annoying fight with Mr. writers block.

However, just recently I got my cell phone turned back on I have been texting a lot, and when I mean a lot..I mean a lot. Anyway I met this young woman in my English 111 class and she is kind of like me, really reserved, quiet. I mean I am usually not like this at all (I’m usually really animated) but honestly the people in my class intimidate me because of some of the age differences. Ugh, I keep going off topic, breath Nile, breath. I don’t think anyone reading this can understand how I am feeling right now. It is incredible how one picture can say so much.

My newly made friend Rhiannon is...intriguing... I honestly have not been able to hold constant conversations with a person every time I talk to them. With her though, I can be myself. I can be goofy when I’m texting her, we talk about zombies and Pokémon and beer and a whole bunch of random things. There are not a whole lot of restrictions. I don't have to "pretend". It is really a breath of fresh air to find someone who is seemingly so open minded. I know this post may sound weird; anyone reading this is probably like "Nile you’re a loser". I don't really think so, I think I find inspiration in the most random things, but I love to find inspiration from people and pictures. This picture of Rhiannon grabbed me and pulled me in like... damn there is nothing to really describe it. It just is what it is. At first I thought it was her eyes, but looking at the picture closer I discovered it wasn’t that at all. The picture was so intense that it was radiating an inner beauty and mixing with the outer beauty and creating the image that you see before you. Now someone can say what they may... I honestly don't care, but you cannot tell me that you have never seen a person like that before. Someone who tells there life story, shows there emotions, there hopes and fears with just a picture. Some may call it photogenic, I don't know what to call it. I know that she showed me some more pictures that she took herself and they were all just as stunning and intense and creative. This post isn't on some "fiending for a girl shit", you have to understand that, that the human body, human emotions, and human expressions is an art to me. Sometimes I find that rare painting and I have to share it, I have express myself, as hard as it is....

I just want to end this post by saying that, I think that when a person does their best to be themselves...it shows. If everyone spent more time being there true self and not trying to be like another person, we would get along better... Thank you Rhiannon for inspiring this post, I saw art today thnx to you. ^_^ :Nile Najee:

Random distractions....

So i am sitting here in the library pondering my civic discourse project. I still have yet to start the project and I am not sure why. I have alot of good ideas that would help the community along with  alot of issues that I feel need to be adressed, but for the life of me I havent been able to start writing about any of them. Instead I have distracted myself with a few other things in my life. One of those things involve looking up words like distraction

(Distraction)
1 : the act of distracting or the state of being distracted; especially : mental confusion
2 : something that distracts; especially : amusement

Anyway, I don't have writers block I think I have an condition called Writerdistractionalprognosis (yes, I made that up), but yeah there are alot of other distractions that go along with WDP(thats what ill call it) When you are a computer writer like myself, you tend to find yourself entranced by the many wonders of the internet: Facebook, Wikipedia, texting, and I think if I still had World of Warcraft I would probably be ultimately doomed to live a very unproductive writing career. I hope any of my readers have caught on to the fact that I am rambling  right now and though it is not bullsh*t, it is in no way or form relevant to anything of importance. Well lets get relevant shall we?

     Regardless of the fact that this is my own personal blog, I still enjoy input from my friends and family. I am not a showoff, but humans need other humans and if you can't get the support of your fellow human beings, what is there. I am not selfish and any of my thoughts I have I want to share and express. Is the world really just composed of sex, drugs and violence? Do I have to basically exhibit one of those three topics or all three to get attention from someone. Do i have to be risque and edgy to get someone to understand that I matter just the slightest bit? I think that is sad and I might just post something that involves sex, drugs and violence just to see the response.  Here is another question before I conclude this short post.

If God made us in his image, is God as violent and sex driven as human beings are?
:Nile Najee:

I hear no bullsh*t, I speak no bullsh*t (quotes from Nile Najee)

"They will never take me alive and I shall die with my head held high and my beliefs held in high esteem..."

"Face it ya bloody b*stard, no amount of mind games, can eff wit my mindframe...."

"Im taking shots at the moon and everything under it...so lay low....'

"When I act dumb, I'm still smarter then you when your actually TRYING to be intelligent....f*ck outta hea hatas.'"

 "I hear no Bullsh*t, I speak no Bullsh*t. My thoughts stay spewing from the pulpit. My mouth is my gun, and words are my bullets. Everytime I enter, I'm ready with a full clip...'

I" speak truth, but what do you speak? You reek of bullsh*t, lies and deceit, but you constantly tryin ta tell me how to walk on my own two feet..."

"poet.writer.thinker. token black guy. crazy. stupid. smart. reckless. lazy. quiet. weird. loud. Mad Hatter. random. Niel. Nas. nigga. cool. nigger. african. jamaican. hungry. oreo.kid. I've been called many things and some may be true...fact is tho, I'm just Nile Najee D Yarn"

 "I write man. I write. I got alot of brain activity. I wish I could just send a psychic message to the computer. My fingers dont keep up with my brain. Writers Block? Never that. I may go from 10000 words to 8000 but never ever writers block. Spaceships indeed. Aliens do bleed. Burn me in your CD-roms. http://nilenajee.blogspot.com/"

Welcome to writers block...

Hey. Yes, I know its been awhile, but Mr. Najee has had some things on his plate. Not all of it was what I wanted, but it was on my plate so I had to deal with it.  Fact of the matter is I have been writing like a madman lately. I just haven't been on my blog writing as much as I would like too. Mainly because I havent had much to say regarding my writing and English. I have discovered that my English class powers my blog. I feel like I am using it for the wrong reasons at times if I write without it having to do with my academics and English. okay. okay. I'm starting to warm up, my fingers are typing a little more smoothly. It is almost like I had to warm a car up becuase it hasnt been driven in a while (the blog and my thoughts being the car). Well I finished my Professional discourse essay and I feel good about the essay part. I had fun researching about the career that I wanted to get into. The bad news of this is, that the resume and works cited was a pain in my arse. I spent more time on the resume then anything else, I mean its hard to try to make up something from scratch. I have'nt graduated yet, I have never worked at a school and now I have to write a resume that would get me into a college as an instructor. Thats hilarious.... Got damn...I still am writing choppy, this a shame. I really am rambling, my thoughts have not really got to this paper I am going to have to let them settle to the bottom of my brain. I guess everything that has been going on has shook them up. ugh. Spaceships indeed. I need to think...Welcome to writers block, Nile Najee...its gonna be one helluva trip...

:Nile Najee: soon to be the ;Mad Hatter;